Jess Reiche

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It’s My Birthday and I’ll Cry If I Want To

Ah that song. “It’s my birthday and I’ll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry if I want to….”

It’s been my anthem every April 20th since…well…a long time.

I’m one of those people that loves planning parties and celebrating special occasions – except for myself. When it comes to my birthday, nothing is ever good enough. Every single birthday that comes and goes is filled with high hopes and tears by the end. I don’t like getting older. The cake wasn’t good. A sibling stole the attention of my parents. My best friend forgot to call. It snowed and my party had a lot of cancellations. I was too drunk and got sick and fell asleep before midnight, at my own party. The restaurant gave me a purple balloon and NOT the brownie sundae. I have an amazing way of ruining a whole day because of one tiny minuet detail.

Can anyone out there relate? Maybe? Honestly I hope not. It’s a really horrible trait I have.

Well as you probably know, April 20th is coming and already my excitement about my birthday is turning to dread. I feel it. I’m going to ruin it. A day fully dedicated to me, by the people I love, will be filled with tears and angry looks as disappointment falls again.

It will be filled with presents, I’m sure, but God has already given me the best present I could have asked for. He has allowed Easter to fall on April 20th this year. I have a way out.

April 20, 2014 will be about celebrating Jesus for most people, not celebrating Jess. The fact that Jesus DIED and ROSE AGAIN for all of us is the reason it’ll be a good day. This year instead of focusing on myself and how everything has to be about me, I can let go and focus on Jesus. Every time I think about a detail that isn’t going right, I can thank God for sending His son down to this earth so that I could live in his freedom. My life has meaning because of Jesus. Sure birthdays are fun and are about celebrating our births, but how cool is it that I get to also celebrate Jesus’ resurrection as well?

This year will be different. Or at least it should be. God has taken the pressure off. April 20th isn’t about Jess turning 32 (geez time is flying). April 20th is about Jesus saving us all…and that’s nothing to cry about (except maybe some happy tears!)

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